Dating boyfriend in college
We went to different universities (though we were still in the same city), and were looking for different experiences.
He was being really social and going out a lot, whereas I’ve always been a bit of a homebody. I went through a bit of a mental health scare — I was anxious and depressed — and I felt like he didn’t know how to support me.
I never got the chance to bond with my single girlfriends over those shared experiences of past relationships, exes, shitty dates.
I’m turning 30 this year and have started to get a bit reflective about that.
Like, fear or concern that I missed out on the whole dating experience, which I always imagined I’d go through.
Although I’ve been 100 percent on board with the relationship in the years since, I don’t know if we would have gotten back together if we’d broken up. I do have that little bit of doubt, I guess it’s FOMO, that comes up every now and then.
It doesn’t make me panic or want to leave — it just sort of sits quietly in the back of my mind.
I bring it up with him because I want to make sure I’m doing the right thing for both of us.
It was probably in my mid-20s when that feeling of missing out peaked, but it still returns every once in a while.
I’ve brought it up with him actually, and even with his friends, numerous times — just checking to see if he feels the same way.